Cloud Envy

By Atlas Quest

CW // Suicide: This poem includes discussion on suicidal feelings.

I’m a lazy piece of shit

I don’t know why

My motivation often left without reply

Whole room be on fire

My mind says I’m fine

Playing video games till a quarter past five

Straight in the morning would you look at the time

Days being wasted

They lapse they go by

Stuck in this cycle for 3 65

Death on the mind like winter 15

With dreams of a king

But he ain’t have a life

He wanted stages to sing

But what would he write

No one wants to hear about a kid

Stuck in his room

Scared of the lights

Who hasn’t opened his eyes

Who won’t go out to live

But he’s too scared to die

Is this how you get your name shining in lights

Is this how you make sure that your family right

The kids stuck to the screen

Empty mind

Shallow eyes

Staring empty

The only thing on his mind

Is the kills on his team

Playing Call of Duty

And when he gon eat

AYE you listening?

Yeah but can we just watch the clouds fly by?

If you or someone you know is struggling with thoughts of suicide, there are a number of prevention resources available including:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255

Crisis Textline: text NAMI to 741-741-24/7
Text message support for those in crisis

Mental health evaluation and services, including a crisis hotline, for youth as well as adults with Medicaid.